The Scales Can Sometimes Lie, Mirrors Don’t.

Today, whilst at work I weighed myself. I haven’t weighed myself in months. Possibly even since before Christmas.

What I know is that the last time I weighed myself, I was heavier than I had been in a while. Just under 16st. Looking down at the scales today I was given a huge shock – a crash landing back to Earth. 115kg … 18stone!! What the actual fuck?! I don’t think I’ve been that heavy in my life. I knew I’d put some on but didn’t think it was that much.

This was quite possibly the kick in the teeth that I need. As you know, I’ve started going walking where I can again and eating better. But I could do more. This is where that happens.

A few years ago I posted my start pics. Today I shall post them again, I’m pretty much back to that point or even beyond it to be honest. I hope to then post an updated pic of my progress every month from then on. It may spur me on when things start getting tough and I feel like caving in and eating my weight in crap. The prospect of the hard work to come is daunting and, honestly, upsetting. It took months and months and months of blood sweat and tears last time. Torture to start with until I finally started to enjoy it. However, it’s my own fault and I just have to suck it up and focus on my health. After all, if we didn’t know already, these strange times have certainly reminded us that health is everything.

So, without further or do, here are my current pics. 18stone! My goodness. No wonder my back and knees hurt. Let’s see how things go from here.

Keep safe all,

S

Cupboard Carbonara

Thought I’d just share this quick whipped up recipe for a take on spaghetti carbonara using items you may have left in your cupboards/fridges. A really simple and quick recipe taking about 15-20 mins.

What I found that I wanted to use for this was:

  • Linguine pasta
  • 2 eggs
  • Pack of un-smoked bacon
  • 2 x Sausages (needed to use them up)
  • Spinach
  • Garlic or garlic powder
  • Sea salt
  • Ground peppercorns
  • Olive oil

I don’t like cheese but if you have some add it too!

1) Start by boiling your pasta.

2) Cut your bacon and sausages into small pieces.

3) Heat a small amount of olive oil in a pan and add a lot of garlic/garlic powder, salt and pepper.

4) Add the cut up sausages and bacon to the pan and cook through stirring occasionally.

5) Ensure pasta is cooked and drain suitably.

6) Crack two eggs into a jar and stir with a fork.

7) Add the pasta into the on with the bacon and sausages and also add the spinach. Lower the heat. Stir until ingredients are evenly spread.

8) Add the egg into the pan sporadically whilst stirring.

9) Add in extra garlic and pepper and keep mixing in the until the egg has cooked.

10) Serve into a bowl add sprinkle a few raw spinach leaves on top.

Enjoy!

Breakfast Time without Mistletoe and Wine.

A day off means I got to do breakfast properly!

2 pancakes with strawberries and a banana. Combo of natural and not so natural sugars helping me keep full until lunch time with my sweet tooth kept well and truly sweet (a way to help me get amd keep my cravings under control).

My new fave 1st meal of the day and one that I am going to try and make time for before work….or I could take it to work…

Breakfast Club

Breakfast – the most important meal of the day. It’s the one I most struggle with. I’m one of those people who would prefer an extra 15 minutes in bed than get up and make a good breakfast and sit and eat it. So previously I’ve just grabbed something out of the cupboard and eaten it at work.

Now, however, I have found something thats quick to make (either at home or at work) and doesn’t require me to sit down and eat it like a Full English.

Here’s how to make it…

Tablespoon of Hemp seeds.Add half a cup of chocolate soya milk. Top it up with hazelnut milk and give it a stir. Cover with a layer of flax seeds. ‘Decorate’ with strawberries.

Voila! A seedy, chocolatey, nutty and fruity breakfast. It is much more filling than you may believe. Try it and see what you think!

Does Apple Cider Vinegar Work?

A colleague told me today to take 2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar with water a day in the morning. She told me to eat as you would and dont do any more exercise than you would and you notice the difference in 2 odd months.

Well lady..you’re on. Lets see if this isn’t just any old wives story and find out if it does help along the way.

Anyone else tried this before? Notice any difference? Let me know!

On A More Serious Note…

In most of my posts, I make a joke about my weight and constant struggles lowering it. This post, however, is just something a bit more serious that I would like to share with you all.

Of course, I would like to lose weight to enable me to feel good about myself. Be able to look in a mirror without utter disgust. Be able to look good in clothes that are a bit skimpier than a bin bag. The main reason I would like to lose weight, however, is to improve my health. Here are some of the observations that I have made recently with my rising BMI:

Mind:

Hardly exercising, drinking and eating constant crap is really having a detrimental effect on my mind. The main thing it is playing on is my anxiety. I have not been going with my family to see other family members because of my anxiety. Worrying about what they will think/say about my increasing weight – how disappointed they will be in me. Not only family members, but cancelling on friends too for the same reasons.

I have also noticed myself growing more and more depressed. I, honestly, have no nice things to say about myself. I can not look at myself in the mirror at all. A constant feeling of tiredness accompanies my little to no drive.

Hair:

My hair is ridiculously thin, constantly breaking and falling out quicker than North&South Korea.

Periods:

As some of you who have followed this blog from the beginning will know, I have Poly-cystic Ovaries. Before I lost weight a few years ago, I hadn’t had a period in over a year. When I lost the weight, my periods came back to being monthly and light. However, since gaining back the pounds I have noticed my monthly periods becoming less regular and even skipping months. This is not something that I would like to start happening again as it effects so much more than just my menstrual cycle.

Skin:

My skin is growing whiter by the day, massive circles around my eyes and I look generally unwell all of the time. I believe this is due to not having the right amount of vitamins through not eating properly and not exercising regularly.

General Health:

I’m not going to lie, in the past two months I have been seriously worried that I was going to have a heart attack – on more than one occasion! I have been feeling tight chest pains, unusual heart rhythms/flutters and experiencing very high blood pressure, something that I NEVER get. I have caught a bad bad cold more times in the past six months than ever before and I find it hard to breathe if I lay on my back due to my neck fat and humongous boobs crushing down on my trachea.

So there you have it folks, these are the main reasons why I am incredibly focused in losing the weight that I have accumulated and put back on over the past year or two and even more if I can. It’s not about how you look it’s all about health. I don’t want to get diabetes or risk dying young all for the sake of a few precious moments with some chicken nuggets, pizzas and chocolate etc.  I want to live life and live life full. As Renton said in Trainspotting “I choose Life”.

S.